The presents were wrapped
And the stockings were hung
The stories were read
And the carols were sung
We put up the tree
And we saw all the lights
We watched all the movies
And had some late nights
The cookies were baked
And treats were delivered
I let the kids skate
While I stood there and shivered
I watched their recitals
Recorded their plays
Took them to parties
Ate sugar for days
We served at a home
For the elderly souls
Played BINGO, served cocoa,
And shared candy bowls
Will they even remember?
Will the kids really care?
That someone was missing?
That their dad wasn’t there?
Have I kept the traditions
As best as I could?
Done all the fun things
As I know that he would?
Have I kept them too busy
To remember the reason?
Why Christmas is special
The whole point of the season?
I’ve checked all the lists
And believe me, there’s plenty.
Now the big day is here
Are we finally ready?
Physically, Yes, but
Emotionally, No.
I don’t want to spend
This next day alone.
I have family of course,
And the kids will be there,
And the neighbors have showed us
How much they all care.
But it won’t be the same
And I guess my big fear
Is “Will I ever stop,
If I shed just one tear?”
So I’ll wash my face
And put on a smile
And hope it will last
For the next little while
‘Cause there’s plenty of things
To be happy about
The looks on their faces
As they scream and they shout
Christmas morning will come
And the day will be spent
And we won’t even know
How the time came and went
Most times I’ll be happy,
Sometimes I’ll be sad,
And that’s okay too
‘Cause I miss their dad
But one thing I promised
I’d never forget
Is that I’m not alone
And the end is not yet
For Christ is my Savior
My companion, and friend
He came to bring hope
And His strength He will lend
So when I feel weak
And I can’t do it all
I will fall to my knees
And His name I will call
To carry my burden
To lift up my soul
To help me get through this
And make me feel whole
And when I look back
I will see how I’ve grown
And know that I couldn’t
Have done it alone
